It is a while since I have posted but things have been happening in such a way that I have not wanted to write about them until the process had reached some sort of end. It is not over yet but I want to speak about it very briefly. A while back I wrote a post about having reached a turning point. This was, and remains, true.
In order for the new to enter, however, there must be space cleared and a welcoming fire lit. This is what has been happening. I have come to a new understanding of myself and of my power - which is not mine but that of Inanna who is within and without me. She it is who is, and has been, guiding me and it was She who led me here. And I know that She will make clear what I must do.
So, I do not need to worry. True. BUT old habits die hard and when I awoke on Monday and realised that I had very little money and no definite prospect of any before the end of the month + a new transport pass to buy and an overdue as bill to pay, I went immediately into panic mode - it is all over and I should sell all I own and return to the familiar world of the UK! I have failed! I have been deluding myself! Etc etc.
But these things are not true. They are the voices that I have been listening to since I was a child. They are not my true voice. I am only just beginning to find that.
I will return to more regular posting very soon.
Midwestern neon blues
3 days ago